To release is just the beginning
Good morning / Good evening to you all
tonight I am gonna share some thoughts with you about the ego we carry around us and the importance of releasing from it in order to stay true to who you are. As an artist you have always carried an ego around with you, and you have probably heard from others as well that you carry it with you, by just being you and being creative. An ego is always good in the beginning, when you start creating, and go from having a hobby to actually making the move and shut other needs out in order to pursue a dream you have, because there are sacrifices you have to make in order to live like this, and then your ego is a good friend to have to have the guts to do.
But, When I say let go of the ego, you may raise a few eyebrows and ask the question, why? we need the ego in order to do this, to become what we are meant to be and so forth. To that I have one response: The ego will probably be the number one hindrance in order to achieve exactly that, and I am going to tell you why. Inside that ego lies the dangerous: What does other people think of what I am doing. Is this correct of me in order to please those others. Am I writing this right, am I phrasing this the correct way. All those question lies and rest with the ego, and thats why it is the number one hindrance of creative progression. I remember being lost in the same thing, the same pattern of, I am gonna make this song or this poem and i am going to this and that so it will be more applicable to the listeners, put in some extra of this and add some of that, and ended up with something that I cold not stand for and that other people heard as well that I did not stand for. I wanted so badly to be liked by others, or my ego wanted that, it craved it because I was not ready yet, I had not found my musical outlet or my muse if you like, and the only thing suffering inside me then was my ego, I cared.
It wasn’t until 2011/2012 I managed to let go of that, I let go of patterns, I let go of impressing someone else, I started writing and 365 daily challenge and if it sucked, it sucked, but at least I wrote what I felt, and this adapted over to my music, I added bridges, I added repeating lines, I added arrangements that made me want to listen to my own music and all of the sudden others started appreciating it to, they started saying, Hey great work, you sound amazing, your words really moves me, but being the fact that I had removed myself from my ego, I can say no other words than thank you to them, it is flattering off course, but there was something in me saying: as long as I am true to myself and what I want I am happy and that has made me cross genres and create stuff I didn’t think I could manage to do, I took it one step forward the moment I let go of that ego and need of getting feedback. The ultimate result of that revealed itself a couple of weeks ago when I sat down filming myself with a guitar creating a spoken word version of one of my song
So my cry to you all is let go of it, no one matters more than your words, you are the only factor to your own success/happiness and no one can put a stop to that
Peace
MesAyah
MesAyah 
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